Where to begin today. I have been on a rollercoaster for all my life and have my big ups and downs. I can feel my self falling back down but I have no idea how to stop the ride or change the track to make it flat while I’m up and stay out of the hole. My family and friends help but they can’t be around all the time. I need to figure out a way to be ok when I’m alone. when I’m alone all the dark and self doubt thoughts run through my head. That’s why when I’m alone I have to have something going in the background to distract my stupid brain. I want to end this with two things first fuck depression and I will not let this kill me.